You may (or may not) recall a guest post by Jannie (Boulanger) Hanna about her struggle with endometriosis (January 25, 2019). I want to offer my sincere congratulations to Jannie and her husband, Tyler, welcomed the most beautiful little boy, Edward Cletus Hanna last December.
It has been a long, long time since I’ve written a blog post.
Part of the reason is because I am busy with my business.
The other reason is because I was chastised for a post.
And I allowed that to stop me. Which is unfortunate that I allowed that to happen.
But I am only human, and I too, can be hurt.
The Heart Does Heal
In October, 2018, I posted that my heart was hurt.
I was chastised for posting that blog post. I was told I “caused hurt by telling the world (social media of airing your differences and saying what I did)”.
I was told to apologize. I wrote an email doing so. My heart was not in it at all, because I wasn’t doing it for me. I was doing what I was told to do. I offered an “olive branch”.
The response was to leave things as they are, no contact. Being told that I will never obtain forgiveness.
The only one I need forgiveness from – ever – is God.
I’ve read, researched, and studied and learned a lot in the past year about traits of other people.
I worked with a client in my business that was all about money. I’ve never seen anyone so obsessed with money. I ended the business relationship.
Another client in my business was not treating his employees well and was hiding money. Another business relationship ended.
My heart began to heal when I removed toxic, unloving, pessimistic, narcissistic people from my life.
When those people were removed from my life, life – physical, emotional, and financial life – got better!
I definitely had a great deal of support during this healing. Support from those who love me unconditionally, love me for who I am, not what I can give them.
Life is Good
I’m still a boring cancer patient. Self-isolating during this coronavirus pandemic.
My cancer is not gone. It is still soundly sleeping and could wake at any time. This is always in the back of my mind.
And I am reminded of it every time I try to do more than I should. It is normal for me to be wiped out and done with my week on a Thursday.
We quietly celebrated my 5-year cancerversary on March 31st, 2020. I am now considered an ‘outlier’, one who has responded beyond expectations.
We had planned and paid for a cruise through Little Pink Houses of Hope that would occur in August of this year. We also planned for some fun side adventures, including flying from Florida to Toronto to spend some time at Niagara Falls. The hubs and I have never been there! All of this was planned in celebration of my upcoming 50th birthday in September.
Based on the pandemic however, all plans were canceled. The last place I want to be is on a cruise, or a plane!
The hubs and I spent the 4th of July holiday week up north at the cabin. It was heavenly. Spending time with family, being outside on the beach, riding the 4-wheeler. We both agreed – life is good, we are happy.
I absolutely love working from home! Especially during a pandemic!
Business is going well and continues to grow. It keeps me busy every day along with …
The hub’s business! He started his own business in September, 2019.
I am so proud of him and grateful that I am able to support him in his dreams, goals and aspirations for the future.
The hubs has been a Master Electrician for 36 years, he knows his stuff, he does it right. There are no shortcuts. He knows the electrical codes inside and out. His intelligence amazes me every single day.
I am proud to stand by his side. He is proud to stand by my side.
Sending love and hugs to all! ~Erika